Mother Nature said, "sorry, not today..."

Fog...FogFogFogFogFog...damned Fog! San Francisco is infamous for their fog, but I didn't even stop to think that during the summer months our plane could be delayed by 2+ hours due to said "fog". It was...we are NOT in San Francisco. We didn't go. We did, however, marry ourselves in a very quiet, very old, very beautiful (on hills) cemetary in NW Portland, and that was grand. We spoke from the heart, said what we needed to say, and exchanged rings. That was that. There was a jogger in the cemetary we saw twice, and she dissapeared after that...it was all to ourselves. It was amazing, breathtaking, romantic. I am wearing Chris's ring, and she is wearing mine. I'll post pics in the near future.

In short - we missed all our appointments due to the fog, and couldn't reschedule (or make a new appointment, actually) until August...screw it - it's a piece of paper, and unfortunately it means a lot to both of us but the physical act of accepting each other is what means the most. I want to be with her, she wants to be with me. There are pictures on the camera and I hope to have those up in the near future. We looked nice.

We started out at the Rose Garden, which lifted Chris's spirits...she said I was a "rock" during it all and didn't "crumble" like she did when she found out we wouldn't be joining my old friends in San Francisco - and all the other options we looked at fell far short or seemed just ridiculous - like the idea of just flying down and trying to get a license and hoping for a marriage ceremony cancellation...no, not into standby in a strange city, strange timeframe, strange manner. It just wasn't in the cards.

Chris, for a few minutes, thought her mother "prayed hard enough" to get God to listen to her - to get God to say "Chris should not be married" - because this is what her mother wanted. I think, honestly, that we are an example for others of what non-straight people have to go through just to get recognition as being "married" - if we had a piece of paper those straight folks out there, even if they didn't like it, would have to accept the fact that someone said it's legal. That sucks. Anyone who's straight can go out and get married whenever they want...something I can't do unless it's to a man. It's not right, but it's how it is. It's not right that anyone I know who is transgendered (but without surgery and a full sex change) can't marry whom they want even if they live as a straight person to the world, because what's in their pants doesn't match what society says is right. It's just stupid, really.

I should be allowed to marry whom I want of legal age - and if I lived in other countries I might be able to marry someone under the US's legal age - or get wed to someone from birth, or many different ideas. It's our culture that won't allow it - and our culture is ridden with religion.

I'm reading the People's History of the United States - and things don't change easy...they only change in some respects...from pushing, from mouthing off, from threatening, from anger and assult...I wish it didn't have to be that way, but until you stand up to the powers that control everything, nothing changes. We're seeing that today. Keep us all poor, underfed, overworked and you've got a system of slaves - we are all slaves to the rich right now - it's time we woke up, people.

...I think I want a drink. Chris wants new shoes - it's her weakness and she swears it will be the icing on the cake for our wedding day. So be it. ::smiles::